Omg I gotta tell you what happened to me yesterday.
I went to Tokyo dome since it was DBSKs concert and a japanese guy approached me. He didnt speak english so I had to use my broken japanese and we used a translator on his phone. So he asked me if we can be friends and I say of course. DDD I would love to have more asian friends. So he said If I want to hang around Tokyo dome and I said fine so we hang around for half an hour or soo. He said he wanted to go to purikura to take photos and I agreed. But then suddenly he held my hand and kissed me and asked me If I wanted to go on a date with him tomorrow at 7 pm. I was just like WTF just happened?! Arent japanese suppose to be shy? Actually japanese are shy. Guys wont ever approach you even if you speak japanese. You have to make the first move. So yea I was really surprised and just laughed my head off!
Im not going on a date tomorrow! i dont like guys who just jump on you! I mean he was nice and sweat and cute but he is only after one thing I think haha. Im not that type loooooool
anywayz I have to send him an email that I cant go, makin up some excuse... I have to try and write it in japanese but I have no idea how to do that.. Im just gonna ask my roommates for help lool
oh yea I went to hospital and got some pills. If they dont help then I have to go to a doctor (i only went to hospital pharmacy).
oh and yesterday I went out with a franch guy to a fake motorbike pub. It was fun and I met some nice japanese ^^
I thought I got them because I used shampoo for showering but at the pharmacy they told me this isnt the case. They asked me wheter I was bitten by an animal or took some pills. Now that I think about it I did take 2 pills on wednesday, the day when I arrived in Tokyo, bcoz I didnt feel well.
So I went to check out and one of the side effect can be rashes as well (though its rare that happens) and you can have problems breathing, which happened to me this morning when I couldnt breathe for couple of seconds.
I have to take those pills to the doctor so he doesnt give me any medication with the same ingrediants-dont know how will he know whats inside because the pills are made in Croatia and I dont have the box.
Anywayz I was really surprise how friendly japanese are. I was searching for one clinic that has english speaking stuff all day on the other side of Tokyo but I had no clue where it was, the only thing I had was the address. Japanese boys used their GPS on their phones to help me out, old ladies stopped everyone on the street to help me out. Honestly, the whole town was helping me ..... still at the end I couldnt find it- It would probably be closed anywayz since its Saturday.
So yea monday to the hospital... I dont have an apointment so I will probably have to wait the whole day... honestly I dont mind as long as I get rid of this things. Its screwing up my social life... everyone is preparing to go out right now... only Im stuck at home
well enough complaining, here are some photos I took



korean actor on subway

So ... Tokyo.. its really not that expensive, at least food is very cheap. I think its only expensive if you go to fancy restaurants, buy clothes at fany stores... otherwise tokyo can be quite cheap. The subway sistem is really easy even for a person like me who doesnt speak japanese. So far I havent got lost. Japanese are really nice, always prepare to help although you are gonna have a hard time finding someone who speaks english. Guys are shy, you have to be the first one to approach them which in my case is a little hard since I dont speak japanese. I do have some japanese people in the same guest house, hot guys, and they speak english so Im really happy.
are guys in tokyo cute ? Well the truth is..there is a lot of people in Tokyo so you have a lot of average ones but here and then you are gonna meet someone sooooooooooooooooo hot you will spazz all over haha. Yup well there are a lot of cute boys...especially in Shibuya where I was yesterday the whole day <
I was supposed to go clubbing tonight but sadly Ive got res spots all over my body. I used shampoo for showering instead of shower gel by accident and here is the result...
so if any of you know any japanese product that helps with red spots, could you please tell me about it and maybe post a photo of it since I dont speak japanese.
Tomorrow Im going to Tokyo dome for DBSK concert even though I dont have the ticket. Im kinda praying someone will sell it to me for a reasonable price haha
I dreamed about a poison snake attacking people I know twice, I dreamed about North Korea attacking our country but it was all a mistake -they didnt mean it and I was the only one who knew the truth but no one wanted to listen to me thats why America attacked North Korea back and last night I dreamed I went to a murderer house knowing that that person was a murderer. I went there to fix my teeth !?? and the murderer was a woman.
So I went to check out the symbols of my dreams and ... . its not been good really.. saying I will be going through hard time, there is a storm on my way and stuff like that.... thats really not enrouraging... I dont want anything to happen in Tokyo.. Its not that I believe in "dreams tellin the future "stuff... but did make me freaked out. Im a 20 year old girl, alone in Tokyo. Aigo I think too much.
GOOD NEWS! Ju Jihun (from Goong, The devil) doesnt have to go to jail! ^^ Im soo happy for him. He is on probation for a year and has to do some community work but other than that he got off easy XD
I really think all the attantion that he got from the press and how they treated him was MEAN! He didnt deserved it. He tried drugs (party drugs not hard ones) twice yet they treated him like a murderer. He didnt hurt anyone with what he did but himself, his family and well he messed up his career. Im really glad to see that he still has some fans supportin him, I really hope we can see him back on the screen in a year or 2. He deserves another chance for being a really great actor.
How many american celebrities have been taking drugs yet fans still adore them ?! Johnny depp was just one of the 100 of them... but its okey since he is american isnt it ? But when korean does it its the end of the world. People seem to have double standards here as well. (sorry just pisses me off)
And one of the things that pisses me off as well is when people say he is a role model, he shouldnt be acting like this
well about that all I have to say is THAT I AGREE WITH THIS:
Role models should start at home. People in entertainment are human and prone to mistakes. Get your guidance and healthy dose of self esteem at home, don’t depend on someone else to influence yourself or your kids. That’s the problem people put these people on a pedestal and forget that just like you or me, they are not perfect.
(written by Binnie on popseoul)
Anywayz he deserved what he got but its not the end . OPPA FIGHTING

And now... City hall.. are they plan to drive me crazy till the end?! Today´s episode was just blaaaaaaaaaaaah and tomorrow is going to be even more BLAAAAAAAH. Joguk had to break up with Mi Re.... great just great
I cant believe that next week are the final 2 episodes and I will be in Tokyo! But not even a thyphoon can stop me from watching it! Im bringing my own laptop to Tokyo cuz of it! I cant really go to Internet cafe at 10 pm lool

CITY HALL AND THE DEVIL ARE MY FAVOURIT
They are totally amazing live! Worth seeing!
Im sick now.. thanks to the rain (it was an open event)-it rainied for an hour before the killers came on the stage, and I had to wait in my wet clothes for a train for 5 hours! I lost my voice and everything hurts me, from my bones to my head but it was totally worth it! I would do it again
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Since my fav pop band of all times came back, BLUE, I made a background for myself ^^ I havent made a wallie in years so of course it didnt turned out the way I wanted it, but its still okey....
http://www.shrani.si/f/3b/xL/7P64yFs/wal
I cant wait for their Best of Blue tour.. they kinda screw up my plans for this and next year since most of my budget will go for them now haha
my friends asked me if now that Blue are back, I had forgotten abot DBSK.. haha of course not, I love them both and respect them a lot.
DBSK- for their amazin vocals (gotta admitt their vocals are better than Blue´s- except for Lee) and Blue- for writing amazin lyrics,something DBSK has to improve a lot. If those 2 got together in one band that would be like WORLD BOMB OF SEXYNESS AND TALENT <3
im off to listen to Blue now <3
btw I used to be Blue´s OFFICIAL MEMEBR ^^ I still have my member card and the newsletters we got .. sugoi

the only thing that remains the same is HE
woah a lot has changed in 3 days...
1.st: my japanese friend tried to kill himself
2.nd: I got thrown out of my apartment in capital city and had to move back home
3th: had to quite my job in capital city--->lack of money for a month in tokyo
well thanks God my japanese friend is okey now. I did tell him that if he ever tried to do that again I wasnt going to be his friend anymore. He knows he can talk to me about anything.. what was weird is that we spent all day together that day and I didnt see there was anything wrong. Well anywayz all is good now
My apartment... well it turned out that our landlord didnt own that apartment and we, me and my roommates, didnt know anything about it so we were really surprised when some weird people showed up at our doors. We had to move out in one day. My boss at work understood the situation and thanks God she wasnt mad that I had to leave so sudden. I only hope I will get my money for the apartment (deposit +may rent) back because now that Im jobless Im in need of money for Tokyo :S. Yes, I tried to get a job in my hometown but there is nothing. Actually nothing is going on in my town... its boring as hell. The only person you meet outside at 10 pm is an old granny with stick going for a walk. Yea I miss capital city.. there it was funny to just go out for a walk. But oh well Its only a month till I go to Tokyo... but I feel like this month is dragging for soooooo long.
oh when I will be in Tokyo I will be posting photos of Tokyo and short reviews about everything that is going on there (hot boys, Gackts concert, DBSK concert- even if I dont get a ticket )
now Im gonna do the only thing that I can do in my hometown.. NOTHING
My emotional state doesnt seem to get any better.
I talked to my friend on my mobile phone yesterday and after some minutes he said : Are you okey? you sound weird...
I replied that I had been searching for my mobile phone for a couple of minutes and couldnt find it
he said: i dont know wheter I should laugh at you or crying for you but you are usin it now
I was so tired I couldnt even laugh
and I just got home and I took the elevator since I live in 9th floor. I pressed number 7 instead, i have no idea why, and when I got to the door I was just like wtf happen to our doors ?! Then I saw the floor number... I went back to the elevator and pressed number 9, but instead going up I went back down because there was a person waiting for an elevator... it wasnt a big deal but I honestly thought Im gonna break down and cry.
I think I will take a bath and go to bed
i feek like Im turning into emo kid

Why does it always rain on me?
Does anyone else ever feel just totally mentally exhausted at times? I'm tired of my work problems - I'm totally overwhelmed with work and not enough HELP and time. I'm tired of being broke all the time even though I work like a dog. I'm tired of being everyone's support system. I'm tired of being the "strong" one that everyone else comes to for help and/or advice. It's just EVERYTHING...I want to hide away from the world and sleep for about a week.

With every waking breath I breathe
I see what life has dealt to me
With every sadness I deny
I feel a chance inside me
To touch to hold to pull me through
Send me a guiding light that shines
Across this darkened life of mine
Breathe your gift of love to me
Breathe life to lay 'fore me
Breathe to make me breathe
A paper promise for his own
He fights against an open flow
Of lies and failures, we all know
How can you live with what you've got?
Give me a touch of something sure
I could be happy evermore
Breathe your gift of love to me
Breathe life to lay 'fore me
To see to make me breathe
Breathe your innocence to me
Breathe your word and set me free
Breathe to make me breathe
The dreams we dream of what life brings
The highest highs can turn around
To sow love's seeds on stony ground
-----Ure Midge-Breathe---
I got tagged by ELINA! I got Jaejoon.. thank you <3 love you <3
1. Do you like this person?
- DUH!!!
2. How do you call this person?
- Jae, my hubbie
3. Which color do you associate with this person?
- black! because he loooooks sooo freakin sexy in the suit^^
5. Looking at his/her character, what blood type do you think he/she has?
- No clue about blood types either... where is number 4 ?
6. What do you want to tell that person?
- Be aware! Im going to be in Tokyo at the same time.. and I cant hold back anymore muahaha
7. What do you want to do with this person: hug, kiss or shake hands?
- i have only this 3 options ?.. kiss.. and everything that comes after/with kiss
8. Pick five of your friends and pick one person for them:
okenzie
do the thing loves
IM GONNA DIE NOW!!!!!!
i cant believe.. i feel like cryin
here it is: yusuke and me

yea well we both look kinda drunk, high and stuff... it was december, it was cold and we had been drinking for 10 hours lol.
anywayz you wanna see someone really hot ?!!
his name is alex and works in HnM in London ^^ he is japanese
now open this link and be ready to die
www.shrani.si/f/42/Wx/LbIRqqd/dsc05842.j
i love his style, haircut, smile, pose .. everything
my friend was in London 2 weeks ago and she is really obsessed with Alex, so she asked my friend who went to London with her, if he could go to Alex and take a photo of him
so this guy goes to alex and tells him that there are 2 girls obsessed with him and if he could take a photo of him cuz it would really make them happy
and ALEX AGREED! woah i love my friend ! now I can spazz over this photo over and over again
I havent been on for quite some time. Well I have been busy making money lol
Its less than 2 months till Tokyo. Im soo excited and scared at the same time. I hope I will have enought money. lol
cant believe I will be in Tokyo when DBSK are having 2 concerts in Tokyo dome and yet not be able to go.... T__T
when I will see all those crazy fangirls standing outside tokyo dome... im sure Im gonna start crying.. i should be one of those lucky bastards :S
well I still hope i can go to Gackt and Gazette... im actually waiting for news right now
i hope my friend was able to get the tickets
So I talked to Yusuke 2 days ago.. you know that one japanese that made me completely lose my mind.... on 1st of April he came to Slovenia for 8 hours.. he said he came to see me but honestly we didnt spend any time together... he did take a shower at my place and said he didnt mind if I came in... damn his self esteem must be high lol... well he is cute.. hot.. sexy.. nice...
anywayz he went back to Japan for a month... 2 days ago he told me he was back in Europe , in Amsterdam.. and that he is moving to Monaco where he will be working for half a year... this guys have guts!!! MONACO!! it sounds expensive... holly maria
anywayz... i finally got that guy out of my mind... after all Im going to Tokyo where I will be surounded by millions of them haha.. but Yusuke told me he will visit my city one day soon... cant this guy just let me alone?!! its like he doestn want me to forget him loool
well but he is a great friend.. he told me the next time I want to go to Japan I should go when he is there, so I already have a place to sleep lool i will definitely use him for that haha
oh i got to know korean girl from Seoul who will be in Europe for all summer and she said she will visit my country as well in August. its so great makin friends from all over the world
i will never stop travelling
anywayz wish me luck for gackts concert tickets
I really wanna go. I know there is a website tickets.co.jp but I dont speak japanese
Im going there alone with my almost zero knowladge of japanese so Im pretty freaked out!
ok so we havent talked for a long time since I kinda didnt know what to talk about so after some minutes I said i had to go (so lame I know >___ <)
so he asked me how i was doing and I told him that I was fine that I just came home from the capital city and he was like : ohh you are not there right now ? and I was like nooo.. unfortunately (cuz if i was I would SOOO walk pass the restaurant 1000000 of times-- I actually went pass the restaurant 5 times yesterday, though it wasnt all for him..hm hm ok dont believe it if you dont want too)so we talked about my hometown and then about the cities he visited in our country. am and then I told him I was coming to the restaurant on monday with my friend.. and he said: monday.. of course.. I work on monday ^^ (like I cant go there when he is not working... pointless to say that I wouldnt go if he wasnt there) and he said : hope to see you then.. and i replied: same same (as same here--- duh im dying to see that guy...... mummy why does he have to leave!!!!!)
ok then i just said I had to go... damn IM SOOOOOO LAME!!!!!!
im soo mad at myself for acting like that.. why do I even care ?! who invented love or crush ?! I WANT TO SUE THAT PERSON!
I want the old me back.. the one that didnt care/ think about any one unless that person was called Kim Jaejoon (and DBSK in general of course)
Im waiting for him to come online again so I can use the fact that he has to send me the picture as an excuse to talk to him
haha
but knowing its friday he might go clubbing-- i dont even want to think what he does there...
And the thing is... there were 2 asian (actually mixed chinese-slovenian) and they looked stunning! I had to go over and talk to them and omg it was heaven.. but then I saw him.. Damn that cute japanese guy. <3
I just had to talk to him so i went Watashi wa Sabina Dozo yoroshiko. (this is practically everything I can say in japanese) and we started talking (in english because his english was great). He told me he was 21, been living in our country for 6 months because he is working in japanese restaurant but then he told me he was moving to Switzerland (ok I didnt write that down correctly but oh who cares) next week and he will be staying there for half an year or soo and then probabaly go to Canada where he lived for a year (originally he is from OSAKA.. sexy Osaka man). I think that was the first time in my life I actually heard my heart breaking T_T
My friend only laughed at me...haha
OK than he took out his camera and took a picture of us... he didnt take a pic with any other girl.. not that that means anything but it felt good haha. So i told him to send me the pic so we exchanged msn (yey, its something!)
ok he went to bathroom and it took him ages to come back so I just kinda "forgot" about him.. the next minute he was sitting beside me (HEAVEN!!!!!!!!) and we started to talk and I asked him how come he wasnt dancing since everyone was.. he said he danced before and he was tired so he need some time off... but then he put out his hands and wanted me to do the same (u know with palms up.. how to say this.. like when some one is telling you your future from your palm) so I was like ... is he going to do the FORTUNE TELLER stuff... and he just held my both hands and we started to dance... HEAVEN!!! well I had to go then soon because I have an exam in chinese today in like... 30 minutes T___T... did i mention I only slept 3 hours today ? if you can call that sleeping of course..
and today me and my friend are going to eat in the restaurant where he is working... i know im a crazy stalker but damn he is leaving in a week T_T. he actually told me they have food for vegeterians too (im vegeterian) and that we are wellcomed to come :
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PS: did I mentinon i forgot his name ? damn im no good with japanese names.
he is the first guy that I really liked and he is leaving *goes and hides*
im off to college now.. will post a picture of me and him here when he sends it to me.. i might cover my face because well i did kinda drink a lot.. haha
I can not do it.. toooo much
not to mention that i have korean today and I have to learn this too
anywayz Europeans fans had to send a letter this monday but instead of sendin a letter I sent 5 post cards in an envelope haha. I wanted to show them how our country looked like but I couldnt decided for just one post card.... they were too beautiful
seems like i care more about DBSK than school since I keep thinking bout them... damn it. its not my fault they are amazing ^^
im off now to study







